Changing of the Seasons

*Originally blogged 10th Feb 2015 – reposting because I feel the same way this year!*

Every so often, I lose my thread in life. Apathy and lethargy take over and every day feels like wading through treacle. I struggle to sleep at night, and get out of bed in the morning. Writing, blogging, anything that takes any kind of effort, falls to the wayside. My thoughts are muddled, fuzzy, and I feel overwhelmed and struggle to think straight. I can do the basics – look after myself, go to work and do what I have to, cook and keep the house relatively clean. But everything feels like a struggle, until I can shake off this mental, physical, creative and even spiritual, fatigue.

I’m coming through a phase of this just now. It usually lasts a week to ten days, I think this time its been about a week. I’ve been late for work both days this week (which is OK as I have time to use up), plus I was late at the end of last week and had long lies at the weekends. I’ve hardly written a word, and I’ve had this constant feeling of overwhelm. I’ve often wondered what causes this and I’ve kept meaning to keep a record. It’s too rare to be anything to do with my monthly cycle (which gets the blame for a lot of other sins), but I had another theory which was a bit new age-y but not impossible. I’m now close to thinking that my theory is right.
A good thing I’ve discovered about my morning pages, is that I can look back and see what I was thinking on a particular day in a previous year. And from the 4th until 10th February 2014, I was feeling exactly – I mean exactly – the same as I’ve felt this year.
Today is the first day this year that’s really felt like spring. The starlings and sparrows at work seemed livelier than normal, the weather was mild and the sun was shining, yellow crocuses had appeared in the garden. I  still struggled to get out of bed but compared to yesterday, I had more energy throughout the day and right now, I feel like I can see and think clearly, I feel ready for action.
I wonder if this lethargy is connected to the change in season. I’m not the only person in my life complaining of unusual tiredness just now, and I’m a firm believer that nature influences us more than we realise. It’ll be interesting, over the course of the year, to see if my other tired phases occur as one season changes to another. I wonder if its a form of transition; some sort of downtime as we prepare to face the next season with renewed vigor and a fresh mindset.
Either way, I’m ready for spring. 
Does this happen to you? Have you been in a bit of a slump lately? 

(EDIT – googled this after posting and it does appear to be A Thing…)

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